.Thursday, August 21, 2008 ' 6:00 AM Y
Sometimes it really makes me ponder who the real Susan is.
Have you ever wondered y do we keep harping on somethings which are of the past.
I know it isnt right of me to do it but i cant help it.
I have always been praying for a break thru for me to let go of all that has been messing my head up. I cannot compare myself with others. i can only look into the mirror and tell myself that i can never be in another person's shoes.
Never can i undo the past but neither can i still accept what really did happen. I am curious by nature, who do i have to blame but myself. Y do i choose to let my eyes look at things which i should not even be seen in the first place. i am thankful that some things were deleted before i had the chance to pry on it.
I hate this side of me. The jealous, the small-heart-eyed, the-imagination-run-wild suz. Y cant things just be simpler? It just pisses me off whenever im caught in such a situation. In a moment like this, i just wanna be at the edge of a cliff and shout to my heart's content.
This could just be like a test to me.
*gloomy*
p.s : don't ask me what happened too, its just mixed feelings i get once in a while
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