.Tuesday, October 23, 2007 ' 7:50 AM Y
My bday weekend was filled with so much love, joy and surprises! I am so deeply loved by my close sisters and of cuz my Ray of Light.
Darling specified that the weekend belongs to him. Ok , wish granted.
Surprise 1
Darling booked a deluxe room at the Siloso Beach Resort. He almost booked the Roof Suite but the price is crazy! Then again, im really contented with it already. Darling did his homework and found out that Siloso BR is one of the nicer resorts in Sentosa. Muakz. Thank you Dear.
We had an appointment in the morning, shhh.. a secret between me and Dear. After which, we proceed to Novena Sq to pick up our race pack for The Real Run. Then we went into Sentosa for my fun filled day! We arrived at the resort, it is really cool! A nice quiet and lovely resort. As it was still early our room was not ready yet, thus we proceed on with touring the island. I have not really toured Sentosa after it has been renovated. Tried all the rides and stuffs. Had lunch at Sakae. More sight seeing around Imbiah Lookout. Soon it was time to check in. The room was great for a weekend getaway.
We took some time to juz play with the self timer. Kept snapping pictures like no tomlo. Soon, it was time for us to get ready for dinner at My Secret Garden. It was supposed to be a surprise but Dear gave me hints and I guessed it immediately! It was one place which I was dying to try out and I got my wish!
Dining at a romantic place with the most romantic person on earth is simply heavenly. Most of the time we were juz gazing at each other, smiling silly and holding hands. Darling took the liberty to place order for me. We had escargots and rib eye steak with house red. Followed by my special arranged brownie.
I was soooo excited to unwrap my present! Guess wad I got? I got ticket to Linkin Park Concert Live. The best seats in the house! My goodness! Dear was “sad” that I neglected my main present. Haha. Yes there were 2 parts to my present. Ever since we knew each other, Dear has been collecting saga aka love seeds near his work place and farniely, it only has a few seeds per day. He picked the seeds everyday (without being spotted) for me. To further enhance it, he used light sticks to brighten it up even more. How creative of dear. *Sai Nai* Dear, I really love both parts and u too…
As it was still early, we went to get a bottle of ice wine for tonight. Together with some strawberries. We decided to go take a dip in the pool. Amazingly the pool was empty and we had our own private pool. We indulged in ice wine with strawberry under the moonlight. Tell me how to not fall in love with this guy all over again?
A romantic bubble bath to soothe all the tiredness away
Surprise 2
Morning! Had bfast at the hotel. Darling was so smart to request for a late check out and we went for a morning dip in the pool. Played with slides and got a little sun tan. We check out later and left our bags with the reception. Went for lunch and Darling told me he wanted to go the Underwater World. I was like, Y underwater world? However I went along.
Then, as I was walking towards the entrance, a voice shouted out really loudly! Hey! It was my bestie, Cindy! It happened so fast and I got a shock I was speechless! Y was Derrick and Cindy there too! Something must be up!
I was in for a dive with the Sharks with Darling. All planned by Cindy! It was so farnie, Darling knew it all along! He even managed to sneak out my diver’s card lor! Power.
It took a while for briefing to dress up before we could hit the waters. It was Darling’s first try to Scuba Diving! So exciting and he had a natural flair to diving. Natural talent! It was pretty intimidating being in the tank with those leopard sharks and sting ray! The only Ray I wanna sting is Dear! We fed the sting rays and we were the tourist attraction of the day! When I started posing, tourists started taking pictures of us. It is hilarious!
The dive lasted 30mins but a lifetime memory. Thanks Cindy and Derrick for planning it for me and to Dear who took the plunge with me. You jump I jump rite?
(PICTURES : Akan Datang)
Surprise 3
Cindy told me she is hungry and wanted to go Café Del Mar. Walking into it, I saw the rest of my sisters, Nana and her Dar, Mei , Lingz and Bird! Wooohooooo! Surprised Surprised! Hhahaha, it was so fun having all my sisters celebrating my bday for me. Thanks Mei, Ling and Nana for the homemade cake Thanks to all for coming and to Cindy and Derrick. Really really appreciate it a lot.
By evening, I was already dead beat. However, Darling wanted to source a watch for his bro’s bday which is 2 days before mine. Thus we went Vivo to jalan jalan. Went to his place to pass his bro the pressie and then to my place. Gosh, we both knock out when we got into the cab!
It was a blast to usher in my 25th birthday! Thank u all. Muacks
On the actu
al day itself, Dear surprised me with a 10 specially ordered violet tulips bouquet and had it delivered to me in my office. I was the envy of all in the office. I have never received such a big bouquet in my life before. Later in the night, i got a call from him. Ususally when im at home, i would call him back using my house phone, however, this time he did not put down the phone. Instead he asked me to walk towards my door while he was singing "Happy Birthday Song" to me. There he was, outside my place with a low-fat cheese cake. Dear, do you know you are so thoughtful? Knowing that I had just finished my 7km training and without dinner, there u were with the dessert. Sweet.
I have really really enjoyed my birthday this year. No words in the world can express how i feel right now. Life's just great.
Dear, I just want to let you know that I am really really touched by what you have planned and done for me. Now it is my turn to be stressed. hee hee.
TO my sisters : Thank you all for planning my surprise party and the dive at Underwater World. It was totally out of this world!
Happy 25th Hatch day, Ms Low *blows candles off*
.Thursday, October 18, 2007 ' 2:19 PM Y
Apologies for not blogging for soooooooo long…….
Recently, Blogspot has been barred thus I was not able to blog anything at all. Actually, I cant even find time to blog nowadays. However, I had a little free time today and I decided to update my Mr Blogspot.
Another colleague departed from that particular position. She is the fourth person whom has quit from it. Well, guess who is next? Me! Me! Me! … A real exciting road lies ahead. This will be a test to my own capabilities. I can just hope and pray that I will be able to last.
Recently, I was caught in a career dilemma. In fact the new position offered to me is even better than what I expected. (not in monetary wise I mean). In terms of ascending on my learning curve. I am being offered to smtg similar to running an own business. It was something that I have not considered before but seems like a challenging role. I want to learn how to run a business (as a whole) because there are plans which I wanted to go into. (Ideas provided by Jamie). She asked me y don’t I use a skill which I am good at and sell it as a business. Starting small is okay. It kinda got me thinking on this route which sounds really workable. Oh well, first I need to think about the offer first before anything else.
Did 2 new things this weekend. My virgin 10km run ever! There was a trial run for the Real Run. So its known as the fake run. Lol Omg! I cant believe I survive the 10km. Cinz Dearie is correct. Start small and then slowly build up. I started off with one mile orchard run. Followed by Army Half and Shape Run. (6km and 5km respectively). Now, Dear signed up 10km New Balance Run for us. It was tough but shiok feeling after that. Dear was tempted to sign up for Standchart too, but it is pretty ex so we gave up the idea.
Training with a goal is so much different. I find myself enduring further distances and stronger mentally. Not only you need to train physically but you have to be fit mentally too because it is indeed mind bloggin under those circumstances.
Learnt a new recipe over the weekend. I made pizza including the dough. My master was no other than Patrick’s wife as we exchanged cooking tips for my tiramisu and her pizza dough. A fact that I learnt through her. Recipes from the internet usually would miss out one or two ingredients, not giving you the best recipe that one can get. What I usually do for first time recipes, I would print out two or more methods of cooking and analyse it and then come up with something you create. Just like my tiramisu, I had to trial and error at least four times before getting the taste I wanted. Anyway, the pizza dough was really really nice lor. Soft and good to taste. Plus you get to choose your own pizza toppings! Lets see what were my ingredients :- Prawns, Chicken Viennese, Capsicum, Danish Salami, Button Mushrooms. Never had such a combination before but it turn out pretty ok. My ROL was so sweet, he was my co-chef. Doing all the small small errands around the house, getting my plates, washing the dishes (his duty, he proclaimed! Kiss kiss) and of cuz most importantly, my personal taster.
I made an extra portion for him to bring to camp as breakfast. He got teased by his course mates saying its “Ai Xin Zao Can”. Most importantly, its something I made with my heart to you, my love.
.Friday, October 05, 2007 ' 3:09 PM Y
My bestie never fails to give me one of the best advices. That explains why not only we are besties since secondary sch, we are also sisters in Christ. It is really amazing how our friendship grew to another level with the blessings we received. Here is a brief summary on our growth
Sec Sch : It was all about crushes and having lotsa fun! We love PE lessons!
Poly / JC : Went on different routes but still tried to meet up but totally not enough.
Uni / Wkg : Went gymming for a period of time after which we could not meet up again
It was not until earlier this year where we started our community service and we were back under the wings of God and from then on we had been blessed abundantly.
In every aspect, we were able to relate to each other and grow together. We were even imaging that both of us will still be having loads of fun when we send our kids to Sunday School and while waiting, we will catch up while waiting for our hubbies to pick us up. Or have regular gatherings at our homes to have fellowships and our kids will be best of friends too!
Simply amazing, how special this friendship is, as not only we are able to support each other emotionally but we are both going through the same things at the same time. By going through it, that is where we totally comprehend with each other. Not only is she able to make me think with her words but also enlighten me in the process.
Somehow, we share the same concept towards life. Many of us keep thinking we still have time we still have time but in actual fact we do not and that is where when we realize it, it is too late. Face it, Woman have a different biological clock as compared to Man. Sometimes, fatal casualties happen when u do not choose properly or simply by jumping into any rship with Tom, Dick or Harry. There are some truths which we human always try to deny. Accept the fact that feelings fade, the universal glue called attraction that you have in the beginning will fade. If you are attracted to a person’s beauty and not the character, it will be hard to sustain an rship. You should be in love with your partner’s character.
There are so many things to learn about preparing before we advance into another stage of life. I truly glad that im going through a series of sermons which teaches you the Truth in Life and how we should learn from it. Do you think a marriage can survive without proper guidance? If you think yes it can survive, think again. Y do we go to sch to educate ourselves? Since young, we are brought up that we need to follow "the way" in order to live life. Children, hold your partners hand, Q in two single file etc. We humans need guidance every time. Even in handling divorces, we need a lawyer to do it and tell people what to do. No matter wad, we all seek advices and second opinions in almost everything we do. We are living in reality not in fairytale. Do you really think that Love Conquers All? I beg to differ and if you are still living in fairytale, I suggest you to walk out of it. Many other aspects come to play and often, one of the few reasons for divorce is Money and character clash and many many other factors. Y wasn’t these an issue during courting period? Think about it. I can go on and on about what I have learnt through these sermons and how useful it has been for me and Cindy. Think I should share what I have learnt huh. It would be so useful for all to know.
It is important that two person is on par and have a common goal. If my partner’s goal is different from mine, naturally actions and priorities will be different. In this case, it is solely up to individual, if two persons don’t mind waiting, by all means, pls do, at least two persons are having the same goals. When I was a student, getting my degree was my first priority! Now that the stage has passed, I would, of cuz, proceed on to next stage. Reason because I know with my part time studies, I cant be planning much long term plans, simply no time and no financial backup. Next stage could be career but during interviews, your interviewer will ask you if marriage is on your mind. Thus before you head start your career path, you must already know where you see yourself in 5 – 10 years time and now 5 years is no longer far away. Now that im 24 (still, heng), and planning for my real career start and of cuz *ahem* , at least goals can be achieved by 30. Or even knowing when I have to disrupt career plans for family (when needed) I do not want to start planning my wedding when im 30. Thatz for me la, but girls nowadays are ok with late marriages. However, when you meet the right one and at the right time. NOTE : I added at the right time. Naturally marriage is something on the list. Is it only when it isnt the right time, then I guess, it will not be on the list or maybe one of them aint even ready to commit into something long term.
Singles : Be comforted that Your Right one is running towards you right now because its better to be waiting for the Right Time.
Attached : Do you find yourself standing "AT the RIGHT TIME" spot but somehow you seem like there is no direction for you? I shant comment much about this but it is really your choice. You are the captain of your life, only you have the choice to change it and live it the way you want it to be.
I am glad that my ROL has the same goal as me wkg towards it together! Imagine if my partner is not ready and I am the only one working towards building up for eg : the funds. I will be so tired by the time my partner is ready and by then I will be an old bride. I don’t want wrinkles in my photos! Arughhhhhhh *drama mode*
I dunno for others but for myself, I have to admit that do not want to have complications when I reach a matured age. I think exceptionally far as I am a low risk taker. For eg : Having babies. I rather know if I am able to conceive or not, at a younger age and treat it with medical help, rather than facing a risk of not being able to at a matured age and note, age is irreversible. By then, I will only live in regrets by saying, Y didn’t I find that out earlier. Don’t you find it familiar? When things happened, pple tend to say,” I should have done this earlier, or I should have done this and that.” Too late! Things have happened and we only live once, y die with regrets? Some mistakes we can learn from and start over but we can never start over a woman’s youth and “capabilities”. Of cuz unless you don’t want to have any then I shall rest my case.
I remember my bestie lived by the belief that she will never want kids for a good 25 years of her life. Under the grace of God, DD was sent to her. She changed. She cant wait to get married and have kids. To even go until the extend of serving in the kids church, I think its really good training for her. She too, like me, wouldn’t want to take wedding pictures and have kids after our youth has “expired”. It is a sad fact that we can only be “young at heart” when you are 30 or 40 years old but our looks cant hide age.
I came across this article about successful female bosses and Y they are still single. One of the reasons is that men feel intimidated by them. (Side track a bit :One farnie symptom I realized that women, with a certain age, tend to act weird if they live too long without love. They tend to be bad tempered and very rich) To those who are giggling, I know y. Female, by nature, are the followers in the family. When you term, Head of the House, who do you think comes into your mind. Isnt it the Man? For that simple reason, Men have to be the leaders of the family. They are the central control of the family. Woman rule by emotions, Man rule by rational mind. Thus in fact Man makes one of the best decisions provided he has a good follower partner. If Woman insists of taking over, the Man will take the back seat and not say anything. Tell me which Men want his woman to step on top of his head? Usually Men keeps quiet and let the woman talk. Simply because they want to avoid an argument, some term it as Respect. But that shouldn’t be the way. Women are at fault if we keep nagging and nagging. No men want to be nagged! Women, Respect your partner. This was smtg I learnt through Roles of a Man and Roles of a Woman. Amazing how they managed to hit right into the bone marrows of all with all the truths that we are found guilty of not following.
The above contents are solely based on self commentary. To conclude, different pple take different paths. Wads the need to think about how others think about you. Just live your life to which you feel it should be and be merry. To those who know me well, I come with no hidden agenda and would only state facts. It is my duty to tell my friends the truth before anything happens. It really pains me when any of my friends come back telling me that they regret and wish that they have known the truth earlier. Be it if this will set you thinking about it or otherwise, i mean no harm. If you have any further questions, do not hesitate to msn me, a listening ear is just a click away. LoL...
Thank you for your kind attention.
.Tuesday, October 02, 2007 ' 4:06 PM Y
Sometimes I really do not know what I want to do with myself.
Recently, I have not been myself either. In times like this, I really hope for a voice to tell me actually what I should do.
Friends were telling me how much they miss times in Gennex. However, those were the times when “the usual people” are there and as it is right now. Many have speculated that I will leave Gennex soon because “the usual people” all left one after another. I was highly speculated to be the next to go but I shocked many, in fact only one by still remaining here. Some may think that im having a good life here but I can say that you are wrong. So wrong! Do you know how is the feeling of being trapped here? I did not study my ass off for 2 years to still want to be trapped here. Yes, paying off the loan IS the solution but where can I get the money? It isnt easy for me to be living off on my own with the pathetic salary im getting. What is the use of studying so hard for a degree and not getting recognized and most importantly no progress. Reason being that the company knows that im bonded and I have no where to run. So there is no need to justify for my worth. With this bond, I feel as if im being stepped and trampled over without having the authority to speak up for myself, Y? Because they know I can’t cuz of my restriction. I have to abide whatever shit that is thrown at me, still smiling. With numerous stabs on my back and I am still smiling.
Chris happened to msn me and I just poured out my work woes. I asked him about Y she hates me so much but I juz hope to make peace with her. Y doesn’t she tells me directly her unhappiness about me directly? I am not here to jeopardize her position or to over take her. Chris said likewise, that probably that IS the way she is feeling. I asked him for advices on what I should do. He told me that I should not give face to her but I am going to be a support role for her, how can I not give face to her? He asked me to be tough with her, do not be afraid to speak up against her or else she views us all as wimps. He has a point but it isnt in my nature to be this way. I was telling Patrick that I admired Candice’s guts on this. Being tough when needed. I find that being soft is one of my weaknesses. I do not know how to defend for myself.
So much of me want to plan for my future but I am so caught in between with this stupid bond. However, my career future seems bleak right now. I was in a short meeting with Mr Yeo this morning; he asked me, where do I see myself in 5 years time? Is marriage on my mind? Question caught me off guard as I realized that I have yet to do any serious planning.
My dilemma right now is, If I want to get out of this place fast, I have to clear my loan, but if I clear my loan, I will have to put my marriage plans and any other plans on hold for career. All of sudden I realized that I have not planned for anything at all! I am just standing still, not knowing where to go. More else, probably there has not been any fixed plans at the moment and anything can change. Probably I am someone who needs to see light before I start to walk. I should say that I am a low risk taker and that I tend to lose motivation when I do not see a future. A good example is my job, im so totally unmotivated, lack of drive.
However, I did see a bit of light when Mr Yeo told me that he will plan a career route for me and I will know it on Thurs. To me, that was a reassurance that there IS hope in my career path. Mr Yeo mentioned that I may need to travel in my job but he did say that he wants to know what my plans are. He does not want to draw out a 5 year career plan for me and then I quit halfway due to other commitments. But if I choose to take up this new challenging role, what will happen after my marriage? Can I still work and fly around? How about having kids? Will I be able to look after them and provide for them, be there for them? Or should I stay where I am right now, in my comfort zone, with a non challenging job but able to have a fixed allocated time for family? Sigh..i dunno…..
All of sudden, I realized that I have got limited time to get so many things done and planned. There will definitely be things which I have to forgo. No more travelling, No more diving trips, no more concerts, no more of indulging in luxury. I have to seriously change my lifestyle, I cannot be slacking anymore, It is time to buck up! Period! Or else, I will only have myself to blame. The sense of urgency and reality hit me so hard that I need to wake up right now before it is too late.
Susan Low, please wake up your idea! Stop slacking and move your butt! You think you will succeed by waiting for things to fall down from the sky for u? Hello, Wake up! You are not living in a fairytale land! This is reality!
My bday weekend was filled with so much love, joy and surprises! I am so deeply loved by my close sisters and of cuz my Ray of Light.
al day itself, Dear surprised me with a 10 specially ordered violet tulips bouquet and had it delivered to me in my office. I was the envy of all in the office. I have never received such a big bouquet in my life before.
Dear, I just want to let you know that I am really really touched by what you have planned and done for me. Now it is my turn to be stressed. hee hee. 
Learnt a new recipe over the weekend. I made pizza including the dough. My master was no other than Patrick’s wife as we exchanged cooking tips for my tiramisu and her pizza dough. A fact that I learnt through her. Recipes from the internet usually would miss out one or two ingredients, not giving you the best recipe that one can get. What I usually do for first time recipes, I would print out two or more methods of cooking and analyse it and then come up with something you create. Just like my tiramisu, I had to trial and error at least four times before getting the taste I wanted. Anyway, the pizza dough was really really nice lor. Soft and good to taste. Plus you get to choose your own pizza toppings! Lets see what were my ingredients :- Prawns, Chicken Viennese, Capsicum, Danish Salami, Button Mushrooms. Never had such a combination before but it turn out pretty ok. My ROL was so sweet, he was my co-chef. Doing all the small small errands around the house, getting my plates, washing the dishes (his duty, he proclaimed! Kiss kiss) and of cuz most importantly, my personal taster. 