.Tuesday, March 13, 2007 ' 9:55 PM Y
I have finished Hana Kimi a few weeks ago and now im hooked on Tokyo Juliet. How I wished I had more time to myself but then im quite contented that my time has been packed up with a few stuffs. OMG. I think im crazy going crazy over ahem ahem. How is it possible that such a pretty boy exist on earth! But this fad will die off when the trend starts to fade. I feel as if I returned back to Secondary Sch days when girls go all goo goo gaga over their idols. I would not say that im that extreme but to a certain extent yes, 我动心了. Not in that way, just that he managed to get my attention.
That is the problem with dramas, its too good to be true. Like in Tokyo Juliet, Liang (acted by Wu Zun) falls in love with Sui (acted by Lin Yi Chen) despite knowing the fact that Sui’s enemy is Liang’s Father, Chu Xing (Acted by Simon Yam). Then in that show, it illustrates how deep their love was and although jealously was constantly going around they trusted each other. How Liang manages to constantly reassure Sui on his underdying love and how much magic Liang is able to create. Pop up in front of Sui whenever she needed him. Then the way Liang holds Sui into his strong arms. The way Liang wants Sui to stay by him every moment. The way Liang brushes off other girls by saying his heart can no longer contain another woman other than Sui. The way he Sa Jiao with Sui. The way he kisses Sui. Besto part was he made a wedding gown for Sui. Woo hoo! Gosh im such a romantic freak! *ROLL EYES* Come on lor, no such perfect thing will happen in reality. Wake Up Wake UP! Hee hee YOU TUBE RULES!
I always love my weekends, they are always filled with so much exciting stuffs and never a boring one.
Went Café Del Mar for dinner and drinks on Friday. It was PACKED! They had an event going on that night thus it took quite a while for dinner to arrive, like in an hour’s time. When the food arrived, we were so engrossed in our food that no one talked during that period. The manager Jason offered us drinks on the house as a form of compensation. That is really a Singaporean way to making us keep our mouths shut rite by giving us FREE drinks. Then being a local, the first thing on mind is want the MOST expensive drink. For me, I just settled for a Watermelon Martini and for my complimentary drink – Kahlua Milk. For those whom I recommended this drink to, this is the correct spelling. I recommended this drink to my group of friends and they all loved it. You will not go wrong with this drink unless you do not like milk. On the other hand, I get weird stares when I order a “Milk Drink” in a chill out place then they will go, small girl must drink milk.. not knowing that at last they will be in love with this too.
Was supposed to watch a movie but then the energy I had left was to keep my eyes opened until I reach home. So I gave the movie and supper a miss. Got home at Oh goodness. 3am. ZzZzZzZZZz OK la. I did not sleep immediately, lol I continued with my Tokyo Juliet until 5.30am. Now really ZZZzzZZzzzzzZZzzzzzzzzzzz….
A msged me and asked if I wanted to go blading at 9.30am. 9.30am! I was shocked to hear such an early time from him. I told him he never eaten breakfast at that time lor, still blade. Im doubtful and I was correct about it. Wakaka. Then he kept telling me that he is bored but then I was more interested in my Tokyo Juliet thus I decided to pia finish but cant.
Came Sunday, been some time since I last attended service in Singapore. After V passed away…. Sigh. Oh well.. im glad I have this chance again. Met up with Jamie, Perry, James and Jace. Hanged out a while and had a little gathering at my place. Amazingly, it happened to be Jace’s bday. Wad a coincidence.
It is 9.30pm and im still in office. I have just cleared my work and will be going on my long study break. I will take this chance to blog an entry.
After this entry, I guess I will be taking a short break from blogging while I pursue greater dreams. I am making changes to my life. I realized that there are so many many things I have yet to do and I shall accomplish it slowly, one step at one time. The next time you guys get to know me, I shall be not be the old suz anymore. To those who know what few changes are, just keep it to yourself.
Met up with HW for dinner in the evening, as usual he has tot of the makan place and this time it was a Peranankan eatery named PeraMakan along Joo Chiat Road. I give it 4 out of 5 stars. Yum Yum. I wont mind going back there again. It serves good food at reasonable prices. Catching up sesssions with him are simply great. He was taken aback with the changes that are about to happened and I feel it working too! I strongly believe that I will have people who will always believe in me, in whatever I do. When I sense that they do not, I will just keep quiet and not let the conversation carry on any further. HW my good bro! Thanks for believing in me Anyway, see ya on Sunday. Not to mention a few more names who believes in me too, My Darrhhlinngs, Just, Mei, Lingz, Cinz, Huei, Angela and my Uni mates. I love u all deep deep deep.
Another thing to look forward to is my Grad Trip. By end of March, I would have the trip confirmed. To when my travel dates are, shall keep u all in suspense for the moment. A was telling me that he is going to do a Road Trip there and A DIVE there! Omg, I had diving on my itinery too! Well I see how it goes ba. Who knows L may be there and I can ask her to acc me around. However, my schedule may not fit into theirs and furthermore, our final destinations are different too. This is just the beginning, there are much more problems to be tackled but it shall not prevent me from achieving my dreams! Nothing is going to stop me.
I have so much things to write but i seem to have slight problems writing it down now that im super tired after working non-stop for more than 12 hours and all I had was Prata for Bfast and Ah Balling for lunch. I seem to have problems keeping my eyes opened.
PEOPLE, AWAIT FOR THE UNEXPECTED! I WILL BE BACK!
.Tuesday, March 06, 2007 ' 2:49 PM Y
Met up with YH today as we had to get Mayfong's bday present.
Had dinner at Pepper Lunch, Yummmmmy. ekekek.
We managed to get a bag for her from Nine West. Its soooo nice that I almost wanted to get it for myself but it was kinda pricey. Oh well, next time then.
Went to The Balcony after that for a drink. Edwin was on shift, YH and him are so cute, like little boy and little girl, I couldnt stop laughing seeing how lovey dovey they are. Edwin recommended me a sweet drink and I love it! Its their signature drink! Oh Ya, and he settled our bill without our notice! Sweet.
I had a great time catching up with YH and girls juz love talking, we can yakkity yak yak non stop! We happened to stumble upon a topic on him and I told her I read his blog recently. What I can say is that this type of person is getting extinct, in a good way of cuz. This close friend of mine has been waiting for this particular girl for about 2 years ever since they broke up. I bet he is the only person who still remembers the break up anniversary. Despite the drastic change in that girl, he continues to make progress in his education and career. Hoping that one day that girl would change her mind. I can say that what he says is really what he really means, when he says he will wait he will definitely wait, no matter how much that girl asked him not to. I have seen people who say things just for the sake of getting things they want in a short cut manner and if they do not get it, they change in a snap of the finger. I mean, the goodness in that guy is really tremendous but what is that girl thinking? I think she has got peanuts growing in her brain. With such a good guy right in front of her, what the hell is she still thinking? Oh my god, will someone pls wake her up?
I had a mini Fear Factor encounter last nite, I had to come face to face with a Centipede, although it wasnt as bad as the one i met at home but it was bad enuf to have me cornered at one side of the room. At that moment, how i wished I had the luxury to shout out a name that could come to my rescue. Roll Eyes. Then realised that i can only help myself. I took a whole 20 mins to battle that centipede, my heart almost popped out. Geesh!
.Friday, March 02, 2007 ' 11:45 AM Y
I tot it was all settled but then problems surfaced again.
One of the tenants played me out and I have decided not to rent it to her. I tot I’ll be kind to hold onto the room for her without deposit cuz she really looked sincere. However, looks like the word written on my forehead is Stupidity, with a capital S.
Some pple just take things for granted. Ungrateful!
What is happening to me? Things happened so fast that I could not catch up with the pace. Just yesterday, I found myself at a cross road. You engage in that moment of not knowing what to do in life, just waiting for things to happen and when it happens, I just have to accept it that way.
Met up with some close friends of mine for dinner last night. As usual, it was full of jokes and laughter. Gosh, I missed them so much but im glad we are still close as before.
Here comes the most important part.
I got home pretty late, I was sooo tired due to the 4hrs of sleep I had the night before. KTV session and a last minute supper with E. Had lotsa fun repeating that song at KTV, practically sang around 10 times. Sorry E, for making u wait so long, at least I accompanied you to makan liao lor and I dint get much of beauty sleep.
Ok back to last nite. I was supposed to be doing my assignment but something amazing happened, I ended up having a heart to heart fellowship with Jamie up to 1.30am! She made me poured out things that have been bothering me. The term she used on me was, Emotionally Shut Down. I was taking it all up against myself. I lifted up all burdens upon myself not knowing my own limits. I wanted to not make others worry, thus I covered it with my happy go lucky type of personality but kept sweeping the burden beneath the carpets.
There was a part where she mentioned that it could have been due to past incidents that I experienced and the hurt has been too deep for me to get over. Immediately, flashes of the past came back. The part where I lost the warmth of smtg very close to me. The part where I started on my Independency Track. The part where I have to exercise my duty as the Eldest Daughter in the family. The part where I have to take over the role as the disciplinary mistress in the family. The part where I have to be the hamburger patty both in family and at work. The part where my studies comes in. The part on where my career is heading. The part where AH came in and many others. Recent incidents made me reach my limits thus resulting in where im standing right now.
She did mention that I kept shielding off myself because I do not want to be vulnerable. An onion, I have to be. To slowly peel off until the bulb is seen. Jamie has hit on so many corners of my heart which I have been burying for the past 10years. I cried non stop, she told me not to stop, I could not stop even if I wanted to. As the conversation went on, the more I opened up my heart to speak. Although it was hard to talk while crying but it felt so good.
She gave me some advices which I felt, Hey, y dint I think of that? Jamie was spot on on this particular thing that is going on in me. When she said that, all I can do is laugh and blush non stop. I shall keep this a secret cuz when it happens, all of you, my good, close, best friends will know it. As for now, there are some things which I have not fulfilled and I will start doing it. For the rest, I will leave it to the hands of God.
Keep in mind that you are never ever alone and you will never be. I will remember it.
Thanks Jamie for opening up the doors that have been shut. Although the locks were rusty but u managed to pry it open. Im amazed im thankful. I feel much better now and I will heed your advice and I will be anticipating for what is installed for me in the future. It will and it shall only be good or not even better than ever.
