It's AGAPE Love..;

.Monday, February 26, 2007 ' 4:14 PM Y

Wow. It has been quite some time ever since I last watched so many movies.
Ghost Rider, Norbit, Protégé and Follow The Law. Due to unforeseen circumstances, I missed out on Babel and Once in a Summer. One, plainly no news. Second, not bothered. Guess its VCD time! Now I have a problem trying to get them out…hrrrrmmmmmzzzzzz.

I enjoyed all movies cuz of great company I had for all. Im not a huge local production fan but it was the company I got when I caught this show. Sometimes, it doesn’t matter how boring the movie is, but with the right company, I think that supercedes anything negative. So FTL had a additional special meaning to it. To my Greedy-Bottomless Pit-Head Small-Body Big-Legs Small “Hunk” (pukes), thanks for coming down, your presence just made me forget all unhappiness. Most importantly, thanks for Da-baoing lunch for me!! Yum Yum!

I wanna watch these upcoming movies and my Greedy-Bottomless Pit-Head Small-Body Big-Legs Small “Hunk” (pukes) agreed to acc me to watch a few! YiPPie! Suz jumps for Joy! But can you cut down on the Jumbo Hotdogs and mustard aint that bad rite?

1) Spider-Man III
2) The Pursuit of Happyness

3) Shrek 3

4) X-Men XX
5) Mr Bean’s – The Holiday
6) Transformers

As for your reward, I hereby allow u to use me as a weight for ur back while u do the pumps! But only for once hor….

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.Saturday, February 24, 2007 ' 4:56 AM Y

Y is the ring round?
It signifies Eternity. Eternity of wad you would ask. It is the never ending of all happiness. It is the never ending of all sadness. It is the never ending of all promises. It is the never ending of trust and commitment and faith. The most important of all, to signify Love is round. You love the same person from the beginning and after going a big circle you will continue meeting and loving the very same person whom gave u the ring.

The Ring, A Sacred Item.

I so impressed that I can write such definitions on the word Love but when it comes to practice, I totally sux at it! However, it isn’t all that bad after all, despite that I only know how to apply it in Theory, it is my faith that prevents me from all possible hurts.

Its amazing how much im beginning to lose the real meaning of the word “Trust”. I simply juz cant accept the words said by some people. A little of my own affirmation and a little of my own woman’s instinct made me stand strong. Do not believe 100% cuz you will realize that what is said is all Bullshit.

People move on from stages to stages. When you have passed one stage we move on to another but don’t give lame excuses like not having confidence to move onto another stage. For its only a matter of time that truth surfaces and I shall see the real true colours. I will be able to see all the lies that were told. What’s my point of saying this? Stop giving lame excuses! Instead of me feeling guilt-ridden, I would feel disgusted of what is being said in the beginning and another action is done at the end. It gives a new definition to the word “Bastard”.

Imagine if I were to trust easily again, I would have just officially stepped into another A.H II. Im overwhelmed that now I did not even waste any time on trying anything. I aint that stupid to let history repeats itself. For that Im proud of myself. Im just so glad that I was able to keep a clear, rational mind and make the correct decisions despite under that kind of pressure. We are Captains of our own Ship, we steer our journey and paths. Beware, if steered wrongly, we can only brave the storm that lies ahead. Of cuz it isn’t always the case that I am right but for now, it is definitely a correct choice I made. However, the downfall is, it will juz take me a longer time to regain back my faith in the word “Trust”. I am slowly forgetting the meaning of this word too.

Before I regained and understood all meanings and what a ring symbolizes, I told myself that I will not put on any. Prob the only time I will is when im getting engaged ba. Dunno whether got such chance even not, LOL. By then, I will know if I have fully understood the responsibility of having it on my finger.

I want to take this chance to apologize to the giver of this ring. Something for sure is that you wont read this but I would still want to thank you for this mini-yet-filled-with-lotsa-responsibilities ring (in Suz’s definition). It is very special to me and it will always remain special. No one will be able to replace the place u have in my heart. I may never ever put this on but one thing for sure is that u will even happier if I managed to find the real ring that belongs to me and when im willing to put it on.

I will commemorate this ring with this blog entry and it will be kept locked safely in my heart, always and never ending. It served its purpose afterall….

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.Thursday, February 22, 2007 ' 10:02 PM Y

Nana Darlz came back from Hokkaido! Thanks for the little gifts you got me... My "Xiao Li" and My " Bai Se Lian Ren".

Once u sink your teeth in it, you will feel like you are in heaven. The chocolate will melt only when it touches ur tongue. The biscuits are like candy floss.

Too bad this is only available from Hokkaido, aint too sure if its available in Singapore.

ENVY ME.. wahahahaha.

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.Wednesday, February 21, 2007 ' 5:14 PM Y

Does Look matters?
This was a topic on discussion when i was having a conversation with a close guy friend of mine. I wanted to hear from a guy's pt of view.
I polled only a few pple and all were honest abt it and said that looks does matters but of cuz to a certain extent only. Some were contented and settled for pleasant looking.
One pointed out that what eventually matters most is what that happens next after the attraction. Then I asked him, but in the first place u would have "flitered" out whom you want to be attracted to and whom u do not want to be attracted to.

One more interesting fact that i learnt was there was such things as One-dollar Brides whom can do housework, cook and bear you babies. Then i joked, probably if i lelong for one-dollar, probably i can get lucky. LOL... then i got an offer for $1.10. Come on lor, when you pay peanuts, you get monkeys. You wouldnt wanna end up with someone who live on trees rite? Its so farnie how a conversation can go on and on for hours juz on topics like that.

On conclusion, I can only blame myself for looking like this. Case Closed.

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.Monday, February 19, 2007 ' 9:11 PM Y

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.Friday, February 16, 2007 ' 12:58 PM Y

Guess it isnt that smooth a year still… There has been too much ups and downs for me.

This morning when I step into office, C came telling me that B called to scold her. Saif who told her that we could have half day yesterday. Well the mastermind was F! The New GM! I mean come on lor, by the time the lunch ended it was already 3plus. Might as well heed home and it was always the practice that we have half day after CNY lunches.
Fed up then say if wanna go back early today muz apply for half day leave. What is this man?! I said I will not apply, I will work full day today. The thing that pisses me off was that C2 told F that it was ME who said C said there was half day. ME lor.. she quoted my name! who the hell is she?
But Ray came to our rescue, she told C to ask F whether is it still full or half day today. As the New GM, if he says to have a full day, he will only be making himself look bad, so at last half day was declared.
Im not wasting time and effort to please such pple when there are much better things worth my doing.

Hope there will be 2 more happy pple on earth. Are you one of them?

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.Thursday, February 15, 2007 ' 11:33 AM Y

I watched the Dance Floor last night. My gosh! So captivating. I wanna learn Belly Dancing and Salsa! I like hIp Hop but I think im not Flexible enough. Wait till I get more Yoga lessons first.
Gaia proves that you need not be super slim in order to look sexy lor. On the contrary, Jewelery, comprises of 3 Chinese ladies, one of them is extremely skinny and when she dance there was completely no sex appeal. I was so turned off as when they came on stage, I went to watch my toe nails grow.

Sunny Dancers. They have my utmost admiration. The reason y the husband took up dancing was becuz his wife loved it and cuz he felt that his wife is too beautiful thus he rather take up dancing than let her look for another dance partner. Should I label it sweet or probably protectionist? Then again, the guy claimed that he became healthier after taking up dancing. Hmmmmmm..

Batucadas. I Love the Girls’ Hot Bods! PERIOD. Where did the guys go? LOL

Yippie, its half day at work today and tomorrow! Was supposed to go for a movie but HMPF! No follow up. Angry! But no la.. I would be doing my baking too! So b/w movie and Tarts. Tarts win today!

Hungry le. Got company lunch later. Tataz!

Happy Chinese New Year to all! Collect more ang pows for those whom can still collect and that’s me!!

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.Wednesday, February 14, 2007 ' 2:03 PM Y

This is amazing, I have been going straight home after work since yesterday. Monday I had to acc my friend to do his last min CNY shopping but it was a chop chop one. Ended up I bought 2 tees for my mom too…

Yesterday, I went Phoon Huat before heading home. Bought another packet of pineapple paste. Going to bake up my next batch of tarts for my family and friends. I realized that I haven been home early on Tuesdays cuz the TV programs aired are pretty boring.

Today is The Dance Floor – 2nd Shuffle Round. I find this show pretty interesting, I wished I could dance like them. Hrm, probably after I grad I can join my bestie in her dance class. Gosh how much I miss her.

Today Is also Valentine’s Day! Some would be affected, some wouldn’t be. Depending on which patch of grass you are standing on. Cheer Up, Life isnt all about juz today. This goes out as a consolation to all Singles, including moiself. Wakkawka. For Attached Girls, Please dont forget to get a Good Brazilian Wax for more Oomphf! Or probably juz use it as a form of surprise. Guys love surprises.

Suz's Recommendation : If you are prone to pain, Do the 4XXXX (all off). If you are slightly adventurous, try the heart shaped.. lol

I had the craziest tot today. I wanna go for diving trip at Pulau Lang Tengah. This site was recommended by George and he is going to Perhentian again. Gee… Tempting me!
Again, I may wanna take up Rescue Diver Course but then its more expensive then a Leisure Dive. BUT then again. If I pay a little more, I get to dive And at the same time get another cert to my name. Diving is indeed a sport which makes pple happy. I am happy whenever I go diving.

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.Monday, February 12, 2007 ' 10:45 AM Y

I had a great Sunday!

I woke up feeling good. Decided to make my own lunch. Did the laundry while I was preparing the ingredients.
Watched Chicken Little while enjoying my lunch and it was sooo farnie. Chix Little is so cute. Time passed fast and soon it was dinner -_-‘’

My neighbour called me and asks me to go over for dinner. I was delighted. Her cooking was nice…. I think she cooked enough to feed the whole of Singapore. I was stuffing myself as her son (married already hor, don’t simply think) kept refilling the food on my plate and it isnt nice if I rejected. Was chatting up with him and we talked about work. He told me that his team is doing pretty well. Increment was minimum $500.00 Maximum at $2000.00. My jaw dropped. He kinda hinted me to go over to work for him. BTW, he is with Citibank Group and he is the one who decides on the increment. I was WOWED!

Left their place at 8 to catch Phua Chu Kang Finale. Its reli touching as I grew up watching PCK Pte Ltd. Dropped a tear or two.

Comes Monday which is also today. One of my worst morning.
First at 6.30am, I heard a cracking sound and the next thing I knew, a loud crash. I on the light and saw the poor fan on the floor.

I felt smtg is not right. I looked into the mirror. My right eye was swollen badly. My double eye lids were gone and even my eye bags disappeared cuz it was all swelled up. Blood shot eyes. I came to work in sunglasses, i wanted to use a scarf to cover but i figured it will be too much. See below for pictures.

Faulty EYE

GOOD EYE

Sigh… Wadz next?

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. ' 9:34 AM Y

I was at Esplande’s Al Dente last week. Gosh, they had the most beautiful alfresco dining. Of cuz not forgetting the ALL time fav Italiano Food.

This trainee waiter from Philippines introduced himself as Adrian and he started a conversation. He was on job attachment for 6 months. He went on telling us where his home town was and where he wishes to be. Nice and friendly chap. Only 21 but came all alone to Singapore for attachment.

Food’s excellent, Service’s excellent what more can I ask for?

After which we went Café Del Mar, Gosh… its sooo out of the world! It is considered one of the best place to be when you wanna enjoy a sunset or even having a drink in the pool. Or probably juz to dip your feet in the cool pool. If you aint an outdoor type of person, there is always the good old air conditioned rooms plus they have those long sofas which u can do a full stretch without having to worry about leg space.

It’s definitely a place which I would want to visit again. Who says Singapore is a boring place?

Cafe Del Mar... Simply in love with it..

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.Sunday, February 11, 2007 ' 5:12 PM Y

KELLY CLARKSON LYRICS"Breakaway"

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy I would pray (I would pray)
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance Make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a riskTake a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come fromI gotta
take a risk Take a chance Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

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. ' 2:50 PM Y

My youngest bro will be 16 on 12th Feb 2007. Despite our age gap, he remained close to me and he also felt comfortable relating his affairs to me. Be it homework to BGR's, he would be very opened to me and that he respects my advices to him.

Dad came down to celebrate for him too. The 3 of us (without George, cuz he was working) checked in Hyatt Singapore and enjoyed a mini cocktail at the lounge. That almost ruin my dinner. We went to Hard Rock Cafe for dinner and there was an event goin on. There was this lady who could really sing and play the drums at the same time. AND she was gorgeous. She kept the whole mood up and you could see everyone dancing at the tables. One good song after another and the crowd shouted encore non stop. Guys were flockin at her after the performance. LOl... isnt there a doubt?

Bryan walloped a pork ribs and chix whereas i shared a steak with Dad. I was FULL!

The next day, I went for a dip at the pool and at the same time got some sun. Long time since i last did it. We went for bfast after that. I saw the beverage corner and this brand of Hot chocolate caught my eye. I tried it and OMG. It was really good! Then I asked the server whether this brand of hot cocoa is available at supermarkets. He said he aint sure but usually the stuffs served there are imported. I was like ok. Surprisingly, this server his name is Amran, and he took the effort to find out whether I could purchase this brand outside. At last he found out that, this brand is not available outside as it is directly imported from the Swiss and only one company sells them. Guess wad, before i left, he packed a few packets for me to take home and said that if he could get them for me should i return to Hyatt and to juz inform him before I arrive and he would get a box for me.. One box at SGD44.00! OMG... most ex hot choco i ever drank! im a choco lover thus im crazy over it. He added on that that company carries many other brands which are supplied to other hotels. He passed me the contact details and asked me to contact him thru Hyatt Grand Lounge if im coming back. Im super impressed with their service level. It is somthing which I ought to learn too. To go the extra mile for my customers.

For those who are interested, the picture is below.

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. ' 12:55 AM Y

I did something which was labelled "Courageous".

There are always many first times in life and this is definitely one of my first. There are so many first times that are waiting for us to explore juz whether are we brave enough to face them.

I was supposed to go back JB today but i just wanted to be alone. A turtle always feel safe in its own shell doesnt it?

As you walk thru experiences, you will learn where the emergency exits are and exactly where you would walk in order to reach the exit.

I will continue to stay strong and work towards what is needed of me. Move on, never stop making other pple happy. I believe in karma, by making other pple happy im sure i will be, one fine day. Call me stupid call me silly. Im willing to be hurt in order to make another happy.

I will never regret what i did for i will if i did not.

I cant wait to explore this world! There are so much things yet to be accomplished so y wait?

I still believe and i shall embrace this world with much more happiness and laughter.

After writing this, i feel soooo hungry... i realised I have not eaten dinner. *stomach growling* .

Im off to raid the fridge! Woohoooooo

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.Saturday, February 10, 2007 ' 3:05 AM Y

Today I attended my last class. Final..Finito! I bid my classmates goodbye. Everyone of us left with a heavy heart. We even hanged out for a drink and a light meal after class. Something which we did not do often.
Time really flies. It felt it was juz yesterday that we grouped ourselves together and we are known as the S.O.N group in class. Y S.O.N? It stands for September, October and November. The reason is pretty obvious, our group consist of one Sept (Angeline), four Oct (Sueh Li, Connie, Silah and Myself) and one Nov (Michelle) babies. It was hard knowing that we would not be seeing each other as often. Although 2 years is not long but we made it through thick and thin throughout this course.

We constantly supported each other. The stronger girls showed tremendous patience with the weaker ones. One of the most memorable study sessions was after work, we studied till dawn the next day and we took the first train back home. We were crazy back then but it was worth it. Im so glad that I knew such good friends in this class. Parting is always unbearable but we had planned out to meet for gathering every year.

2006 – Sueh’s place for Steamboat
2007 – Sueh’s place for Pot Luck
2008 – Connie’s New place ; TBA
2009 – Angeline’s place?

Whenever there is a gathering, there is a parting. We juz have to live by it

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.Thursday, February 08, 2007 ' 3:50 PM Y

In a few days time, we are going to enter the Month of Love! Yes It is going to be the Valentine’s Day Month.

Although Valentine’s Day is super commercialized day, people have different views on this particular Love Day. For me, I have long forgotten how to celebrate a Vday bcuz I have not been celebrating it for a few years already. For the past few years, Uni of Bradford has been kind to me and making me study in school.

Well, im not anticipating this year to be any different from previous years. For the past few years, I always had classes on Vday itself. My sch has been kind to me. Knowing that I do not have a Valentine, they made me study. =(

In fact, there are many other things that can be done on Vday. Ok you can say that it’s a consolation for all Singles out there. Being Single isnt that bad.

1) Whip up a home cooked meal full of my fav food.
2) Bake up 10 different varieties of cookies, cakes and puddings
3) Watch 5 Dvds at one go.
4) Go Swimming
5) Have a Masquerade Party with my Soft Toys
6) Be a Maria
7) Do Hair and Face Mask. Followed by Manicure and Pedicure
8) Tidy up my closet
9) Study …er
10) Sleep early

Labels: Friendship Day

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.Tuesday, February 06, 2007 ' 3:55 PM Y

My new tenant J came last nite. The first impression they gave was “WOW”. They did not expect that I made up the room so beautifully. OK.. its not hotel standard, but at least it was cosy enuf for two individuals to have the same reaction.

My half day leave taken did not go to waste. I really take my hat off Moms, they are indeed very capable. Pple ask me y I need to take leave just to clean up my place. (p.s : this qn was posted by some nosey poker with a Capital C). Come on lor, my ex tenant left my place at 12am on Sunday night, I did partial cleaning until 2am. My new tenant will move in on Monday evening. You think I get enuf time to rush home to clean up within ½ hr when even the most efficient moms take a few hours.

I anticipate the 2nd round of cleaning when the 2nd tenant moves in. Then a qn would be post to me. Y dun clean all together? The reason is, there is this construction going on right outside my flat. Thus even if I clean now, it still gets dirty so no point wasting my efforts cleaning 100% now and having to do it again. I juz did the basics no advanced!

I’ve been getting comments im getting to be more auntie. I like going to those “Za1 Huo4 Dian4”. I like going to the market. I like cleaning and upkeeping the house. Thou its hard work, but its reli reli worth it.

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.Thursday, February 01, 2007 ' 2:15 PM Y

Nel gave me one description. im like a little girl whom is being bullied by big bullies out there.

Actually I hate myself for being such a weakling. Y cant I stand up for myself and fight for my own rights? Emotions always wins the race thus leaving my arguments skills behind.

Can someone teach me how to be stronger? Is there anyone who will stand up for me and shelter me from such nasty bad people? I know by hiding under another person's wing will make me equally as weak but then im a girl mah... wad can you expect.

Oh well, life still goes on... I was telling this friend of mine that wadeva unhappiness you have, let it all out. Give yourself time to cry and do wadeva you want. Besides, crying is supposed to make you healthy. However, never bring tears along with you when a new day comes. Thatz my philosophy.

Finally, im able to take a little time off from my work to blog this entry. I have not been able to blog during work due to the increased work load and more to come. I can only pray that I am strong enough to get through this period, at least till Mar when my exam ends.

I just wished I could fly.....

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