.Wednesday, January 31, 2007 ' 11:50 PM Y
I hate it when memories that I wish to forget comes back to haunt me. What makes me real pissed was that it wasnt me who sparked up the fire.
I never wrote such a harsh blog entry thus to all my viewers, please pardon me should there be any vulgarities, if any.
I received a parcel on the 1st week of January 2007. Having no idea who was it from, I proceed to Tampines Post Office to sign for it. (If I knew who it was from, I rather not collect it at all) Ok. So I did sign for it. After which I realized it was from KT. To me, the parcel did not mean anything to me. I had no feelings no excitement upon receiving the parcel. I forgot that I received this parcel the very next day.
I did not rendered any wild imaginations that Hey prob this person is trying to tell me something. I TOTALLY just chug the contents aside.
Just today, I was having class, he called me up. Thinking it was juz a normal call, I picked it up. He has the cheeks to even call me up! The conversation started off quite ok although I was a little half hearted talking to him. Shortly after, he shot me a blardy question. We have a common friend and this friend happened to know that I had rooms to rent and this friend met up with him. So I duno how I came into the picture and that this friend mentioned that I had rooms to rent. KT didnt know who she was talking about so she juz blurted out, Nor..Susan lor *in a friendly tone* . So he tot that I went blabbering about him to this friend. I was like come on lor, you aint even worth to be in my memory. I would rather be dead than tok abt u, u worm!
This bastard then called me up and started telling me that he dint mean anything by sending that parcel to me. I could not contain my anger as it started to boil at an enormous rate. I shot back and I clarified that I do not give a damn to his parcel, I merely chugged it aside and totally forgot abt it. I reassured him that he was and WILL Never ever be in the conversation between the common friend and myself. HOW DARE HE SUSPECT ME! I will not waste a single drop of saliva talking abt him to this common friend. He continued saying he sent the parcel out of a friendly act which I cut in shortly saying that, in future, dont waste any efforts on it because I do not give a damn. What is going on in his pea brain?! He stepped into my territory and yet have the cheek to point his blardy finger at me?! Pls get a life! Im not as childish as u think, Idiotic! Do not cross the line drawn. This conversation went on from City Hall until Kallang MRT. I think I got a little too heated up and pple standing beside me knew I was in an argument.
I was SOOOOO Pissed that im being maligned and wronged until I could not control my tears. All of sudden, the influx of past memories juz came back like a fallen dam. All of sudden, I forgot the reason y im still living on earth. For that moment, I lost it with myself. I allowed my emotions to take over me again. I hate it! I HATE IT! I totally despise myself. Y am I so weak? I started to tear in the MRT, finding it hard to control, I kept looking up to the top of the train, hoping no one sees me and trying to force the tears back. I wanted to pour out my feelings but if I did, I think it would be super ugly and embarrassing. It was so tough. I really felt lousy y couldnt I be more sarcastic? I wanted to fight for myself but the feeling of being maligned overwhelmed me so much that I could not defend for myself. Work is like that, Personal also like that. Whats wrong with me?!!! After that, he still can sms me saying that he juz wanted to create a conversation out from this topic. Pls go fly kite la! Shit. Im going to be at work with puffy eyes.
p.s : I don’t give a hell damn to the parcel, given a choice, I would have let it rot at the PO and let it die from natural death.
Sorry for cursing…
.Sunday, January 28, 2007 ' 11:43 PM Y
As I have mentioned in my blog earlier that the start to Year 2007 have not been a smooth one for me.
Bryan is down with Chix Pox and it pains me when he smsed me telling me it’s a tough period for him and he looks awful. I only can encourage him and urge him to be strong and not burst up the bubble on his face.
I miss him and my mom and the rest of my family but I had other business to handle. One of the woes I had was finding tenants for my 2 vacant rooms. For the whole month of January, I advertised and waited for calls. The results were not good. I almost risked my life by agreeing to rent it to this couple which eventually I rejected it. The Guy was FISHY! Big time. After viewing my place, he started to flirt! OMG. Imagine he tells me that he is with this gf yet he dares to ask me out? Outrageous. I hope that he will change for the better.
Everyday Im in search of hope that I will find suitable tenants. Finally, I decided to advertise on newspapers. Voila! I dint have much problem. 3 viewings 2 took it up. They both amazes me. One lady is married but she is taking care of her kid while her husband travels abroad. She is wkg and taking her Masters at the same time.
Another is Jamie. Jamie came with her bf. Gosh they make me so envious of them. We fellowshipped today and we were toking about couples having the same faith. They had really answered my qn and its God’s way of putting bits and pieces of puzzles together for me. Being a couple of the same faith makes them closer together and sharing the same bond spiritually. This is wad Brother Heewei told me before. Now I am firm and I slowly, day by day, I know what im searching for.
What sparked me to blog this entry is how amazing that things came into place. With this, I am able to move on and solve many other things. Im am thankful for the help that has been bestowed upon me. I really couldn’t ask for more.
.Monday, January 22, 2007 ' 4:50 PM Y
After so long, I finally got myself a Birkenstock! All thanks to Mr Kuek and the great taste of Mrs Kuek. All the way from Europe! WooPee!
Till now there are no prospective tenants thus I will be advertising on the newspapers. Hopefully God will send someone nice to me..
Counting down to the # of days to my final exams and realize that im getting closer to the inferno but yet im still slacking! Suz! Buck up Buck up!
I had finished moving my stuffs from the old room to the new room! Officially staying in the new room now. I miss my old room. Its so windy lor. Now the new room its pretty stuffy. Well.. I get a bigger bed so who is complaining?
Work has been not so smooth. Some pple trying to play Taichi with me. Don’t forget im an expert in Taichi also ah. Old bird liao think I meow only. I will Bite one ah…They better not step into my territory anymore, or else I will tear flesh one ah… *Purrrr*
Im getting fat again. I feel fat. I feel very fat….. I need to watch my diet again…. Cham..
Blue Blue Monday I had today, had a round of non stop hiccups in office. So farnie… but I hate hiccups! *hic* Hic* Hic*
.Thursday, January 11, 2007 ' 4:37 PM Y
GREETINGS!
Lets embrace Year 2007 with open arms! Gee I just love 2007 and I cant wait for the exciting challenges that lie ahead of me! Me! Me!
Ok who am I kidding. The start up of 2007 was not that smooth sailing. Got some bad news, got some good news. However, the bad prevails the good.
My blog is still alive hor its not dead yet. I was just caught up with my bz bz work. So many things happened. Many things at home starting to spoil and the maintenance is done by who? ME lor! The Maria of The House. Everything Bao Ka Liao! Then now again, another appliance spoil. Haiyo, how many more things are going to be spoilt?
Now im in midst of getting another tenant for the flat and im going to make some big changes to it. Im changing to the master bedroom. This is the first time im having an attached toilet for myself! But I’ve got so many things to move… Sobzzz…. So many many things to do, so little time. Every night I have been moving my stuffs little by little. Hoping that I would be able to finish moving by end of next week.
I’ve got a new hairstyle for new year! (Photo TBA).
Worst Comment I’ve received : Susan, you are a mushroom head!
Then i replied, Thank you for understanding Mushroom Language... lol
Anyway, mushrooms are reli reli tasty and it has practically no fats and it does not add calories to your diet. Isnt that healthy or wad?
