.Wednesday, May 30, 2007 ' 2:20 PM Y
Are you Miss Understood?
If I am to conduct a survey of myself, I believe I will get similar answers.
What is your first impression of Susan Low?
Most of the comments will be. She is a bitch. I hate her. She looks so dao! I dont like her. She acts know-it-all. She is so bloody damn proud. Somebody Pls Kill Her !!
Oh well, I did get a fair share of people whom will comment and tell me about this initial “first impression”. I came to realized that either you hate or like the real me. Some will not be able to accept me for who I am in the beginning but I always pray for a good friendship.
I am glad that the truth is told. True friendship is able to withstand any negative comments and always forgiving. It is never soothing to the ear to listen to negative comments but then if I refuse to accept them, how am I going to change for the better? However, I will not stop learning. I am truly blessed to have friends whom will not wear a mask to tell me that they like me but in fact they hate me to the core. I will be sad that the real truth is hidden. I am blessed to have all my friends around me now. Thank God, that somehow its friendships formed instead of enmity. That is integral. 2 regrets in my life were that I did not try to turn 2 enmity bonds into friendship. One of them is D and the other TT. Even thou we are not in contact anymore, I wish one day that we will have a friendship together again. I managed to turned around some important friendships too when I left secondary school and im glad.
Y would I blog about this? I was back at my secondary school and I must admit it wasnt a great sec sch life except for the few great moments and some long life friends I have found from there. I did go through a period where I was boycotted and I could not understand y till now. But im glad that I rekindled with most of them except D and TT. Those were the young and innocent days.
Another reason y I am blogging abt this is that im doing reflections and finding ways to constantly improve myself. Dont you agree that sometimes you will juz dislike a person’s face even though you have never ever seen him or her in your life before. Y is that so? Are we being too judgmental? For me, I choose to remain at a neutral standpoint. Everybody is the same. Of cuz if its some actions which happens subsequently, then it will be a different case. I choose not to hate because it is very tiring to hate somebody. However, we cannot stop others from having their own views on u.
Recently, I got to know the latest of such news of someone whom I dint expect to have this “first impression” of me. Definitely shocked but not surprising because I never knew my friend had that impression of me. It was though another friend that I learnt the truth. That did not affect my thoughts on this friend because what matters most is what we share right now and not what happened in the past. I’ve learnt to accept that that is the kind of vibes I give to pple whom do not know me. I have no idea how to change that but at least if given a chance to know me better, I will prove that im not that worth killing after all. However, if you still feel like killing me, I resign to fate.
Can I state and declare that first impressions are often misleading?
I believe that deep within all of us is a kind soul, there is no reason y we should hate who and who. However, when we know the truth about being hated, how would the person react and change on it? If no changes are done, naturally the unhealthy feelings will still linger. Most importantly is knowing when to retract and retrack yourself and of cuz to rectify the problems (if any). But then, how many of us are courageous enough to tell a person straight in the face that he or she is being disliked? I admit I cant do that so I choose not to hate in the first place. Even if there are the slightest negative thought, I will not tell anybody because I strongly believe that all negative thoughts will turn positive eventually.
So, how well (and TRUTHFULLY) do you know about your first impression? What you see may not be what people really feels. You may feel that people all around you like u, think again. The beginning may be otherwise. They may seem like to be smiling at u happily but is it a real smile or just a cover up for hatred?
Give it a thought.
Conclusion. Susan’s First Impression : Wad a bitch! Wadz yours?
.Monday, May 07, 2007 ' 5:25 PM Y
Bon Jour!
I took a real long break from blogging. Apologies to a few of my readers, u know who u are… *Suz the Maria is back!* I will clean and dust away the cobwebs.
I have finally completed my studies. Having completed this stage, I took a heavy burden off my chest. It seems as if it was only yesterday that I signed up for this 2 years course and now I have completed the race. It was tough, having to juggle work and studies. However, it was worth all the effort I have put in. That goes to show that tough woman exists too. =P
US Trip
My trip is confirmed! Leave applied! Tickets bought, activities planned. It is turning out to be more than I ever expected it to be. I will be traveling to a few states, most of which I have never been before. Initially, I was worrying about having to get approval for my visa but then I got it approved without any hiccups. Yippie.
I am going to experience a few things which are not available in Asia. Hotair ballooning for 3 hours. Skydiving at 120mph/hour. Probably diving. Thinking of catching a glimpse of NASCAR or DAYTONA but I am satisfied with going to Kennedy Space Centre to experience a rocket launch! Ending one of the nights with the all-famous Cirque De Soliel – La Nouba!
A was telling me that he is going up to Chicago for the Pitchfork Music Festival, wish I could go but simply have no time to go up north. Have to give it a miss or else it would be fun to have a friend there with you.
My dad suggested that I should drive up to West Entrance of Grand Canyon where I will go through the tribal Red Indians Route but that is not recommended if im driving alone. Well I shall do a little planning on that.
Not missing out of SURE-MUST-GO DisneyLand and Universal Studios which I believe I will not be able to cover all of it. Shopping at a Women’s Paradize, factory outlets. OMG. I am going to go nuts!
I am seriously all pumped up as the day gets nearer. It is indeed very near considering the programs I have lined up in between. (details below)
Musicals / Plays / Concerts
Im lined up for a couple of programs. One of them is The Phantom of the Opera! Classic!
Another has to be remained a secret. F was asking whether to go Grasshopper’s concert. *treat treat* haha .
4) Finding my way back home
Somehow, it brought me even closer to people who means a lot to me.
5) Outdoor Sports
Ever since my bestie Cinz regained her normal lifestyle, we had lots of wacky ideas on things which we want to do. We are going to learn braking for blading. Haha, we both know how to blade but do not know how to brake. Thought of taking up windsurfing too.
Cinz urged me to join the marathons with her but of cuz we would train up in the process. Shall start with mini marathons in the meantime and it will commence in June! *hup Hup Hup* *restarting engine*
Then today, she asked me if I am interested to join Amazing Race Asia when the auditions open up for season three. Omigosh! How cool can that be?!
And many many more…………
My life has never been such fulfilling ever since. Comparing to the old me, this is a complete change for the better. I am enjoying my life now and not looking back. I will only march forward to a better future.
I would like to take this opportunity to spur on a few friends :-
1) Dearie Cinz, pray that she will find her dream career soon.
2) Nana Dar whom will be starting her revision classes and exams
3) Yann Huei and Boon Seng whom are also taking ACCA exams in June
4) Mei Darlz. Hope she will have a smooth transition during her change of jobs
5) Ling. That she will fully recover asap.
6) WP, who will be having his exams the whole day this Friday.
OK. Shall stop here today. Stay tuned for more updates!
