It's AGAPE Love..;

.Friday, September 28, 2007 ' 4:18 PM Y

September is ending and October is approaching. It is amazing the months are zipping past like in 2 weeks. Usually at such points in time, I would do self reflections on what has happened over the year. October.. October.. What a beautiful month! OK who am I kidding? It is going to be a tough month however, I will survive!

Today, I made up my mind to change my negative perspective on my job and start thinking positive. No matter how unmotivated I am, I will still persist on. I am going to prove my worth, increase my value to the company. Despite all the wounds and scars I have on my back, I am going to just ignore it and give it my best shot. I am going to carry the burden of another colleague who is leaving the company. However, the company has no intentions to hire another becuz got Susan mah. Susan can do it! So on top of my usual job stuffs, I will be handling job scope which requires another person to do it. For long term! The initial “training” for my career progress is back to square one. Im doing things which I used to do before. I am the only one who has been in All depts. (except PCB dept). Accounts, Semiconductor, Components, Admin, Assest Management. Am I versatile or wad? Or probably im getting fat and looks like a ball that can be kicked around easily. Im so surprised at my tolerance level that I allowed myself to be kicked around.

Y would I say that October will be a tough month because I will be handling “Big Watermelon’s” clients. Poor Suz’s ears, hope that you will be able to survive the excruciating noise at a high decibel. I told myself that I will be on tip top condition to serve the customers. I will do it, just dun shout at me! I really pray that I will be able to juggle all the stuffs that im handling. Pls Lord, Grant me the power not to be careless.

Read Candice’s blog and im so touched that I was mentioned in her blog that I made her ponder on stuffs. Haha, means I got ability to make people even more confused. Hurhur. Just joking. Nevertheless, I really pray & hope that her bliss would continue in wherever she goes. Sometimes, when close friends confide in me, I feel so bad that I wished I could do more to ease their hearts but all I can provide is a listening ear. One of the most heart warming feedback I got was from this girl, I will call her Landy (becuz I think they both got the same eyes and I want to keep her anonymous). I got to know Landy though her boyfriend, her bf would confide in me in regards to problems in their rship. After a few years when I met up with Landy, she told me that her bf always remembered wad I told him and that there was this one particular sentence which he would never forget. I was so shocked when she told me that. I never knew that anyone would remember my words. However, I am thankful that my advices were taken positively and wishing that things will turn for the better…

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.Monday, September 24, 2007 ' 1:54 PM Y

Another weekend filled with activities! I guess age is catching up with me as I feel im not that energetic anymore. Probably it may be due to the packed week before that and I have been working real hard at work. I had to cover duties for my colleague whom was on leave. *Stress*

Went blading on Saturday morning with YH & Dar & my *blush* honey bunny! YH happened to be free from classes that morning, so decided to do some blading. Darling joined us after his run at Mac Reservoir. He rented his blades and started flying around everywhere, so cute lor. Dint know Dear can blade so well. Headed to Simei for some baked rice at Eighteen Chefs.

Wanted to catch a nap before our opera performance of The First Emperor but we were running late. Thus we headed straight to Vivo for the show with Cindy and Derrick. It was too operatic for me. Although the storyline was pretty interesting, I was lost along the way. However, it was a good exposure for me to such cultural performances.

Right after the show, I had to rush for my granny’s bday celebration at Chinatown. Had this feast that made me feel all guilty again. Dear did a great job at impressing my relatives. He juz charmed his way .. naturally.

After the dinner, was Mei’s bday celebration. The last event of the day. Phew. Luckily Dear was around with me, my source of energy. It was a blast at St James and im glad mei enjoyed herself. We adjourned home at 2.30am. I was drained completely but I enjoyed myself totally, especially with good company and most importantly, kept safe under the wings of my beloved. Hurhur

IT rained heavily on Sunday morning. Slept in a while before heading to IKEA for lunch and service after that. Went ard IKEA and sourced for ideas on our future home and we came up with some decisions also. Im so glad im doing all these with you dear, and your ideas are awesome! Dear and I went to the library, he wanted to borrow books on leadership as he is goin to be on course for the month of October. Dear, Jia You wor, You can make it!

The weekend always passes so fast, before you know it, it is already over. Headed back home, did the laundry, He ironed the clothes while I was folding clothes. After which, he fixed up the storage compartment (bought from IKEA). There seem to be endless stuffs to do at home but thanks for helping me out. We are like in training as if it was our home. It really helps a lot as we both feel it is important that such chores and affairs of the home has to be done together. Dear, arigato! U are simply thy best!

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.Friday, September 14, 2007 ' 4:41 PM Y

Being able to do something, which you are reluctant initially, isnt actually that bad.

If you are wondering what I am talking about, it is the mooncake issue. I managed to overcome my stubbornness and sliced up the mooncake and started “serving” everyone in the company. A few days back, it will be something which I will NOT do, especially serving to her. Then after serious considerations, it was not easy for me to put down my ego and do what I had to do. Still, I threw my ego away and stoop humble.

After that, I felt good actually. The initial feeling of hatred and anger was no longer there, I felt peace and a little happiness on the other hand. The meaning of being able to forgive someone and make peace is actually very simple. However, the process before you decides on making peace, that is the tricky part. I could have chose to not serve and let that ugly feeling boil in me, or let it go and be merry. I chose the latter. What is the point of being bearing that grudge in someone when it will only make u grow older faster. I am already ageing rapidly I would not want to speed up that process.

No matter how much you hate a person, y not take a different stand and try to make peace? Wouldn’t life be better? The feeling of hating someone is so unbearable. Makes you vexed, temperamental and in turn it’s the people beside you that gets the aftermath of your own problems. It is the love ones that we end up hurting. Not worth a single bit.

Labels: Mooncakes

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.Wednesday, September 12, 2007 ' 4:00 PM Y

Long time since I have last gossiped abt Callie aka Lontong aka 大西瓜

I roll my eyes at the mention of her name. I told myself not to attack her in reality but that does not mean I can’t blog it down.

Today before lunch, Patrick told me something which Leah (another colleague under Callie) told him. Before I get into the story, let me give all readers a brief introduction.
Yesterday, one of my suppliers got me mooncakes from Marriott’s. I was quite surprised that I would still receive mooncakes from this particular supplier. So once my supplier passed it to me, I just left it on a shelf, did not touch it after that.
Callie told Leah that I would definitely take the mooncakes home. However, I did not take it back home because it is meant for the company. My supplier did not give it to me alone, although she did say it was for me but I feel it is only right to share it with others in my company.

So came yesterday evening, I went home without taking the mooncakes. She told Leah that,”See, she must have overheard me saying that she will take the mooncakes back, that’s y she did not take it home.” Oh my goodness gracious me! I did not even hear anything. More else, I never took to heart any of her words, because im deaf to her. Im not so “Gian mooncake” like her lor. She can eat one whole mooncake at one go! If she wants the mooncake, she can jolly well just tell me, Muz she go around spitting at my back. If she got guts, tell me straight in the face. In the first place, I did not even thought of taking those mooncakes back. Yann Huei got me The Raffles Plaza Champagne Truffle and Bailey’s Snow Skin Mooncake lor. I am not so hard up for such things. Why would I settle for something like that? What a surprise that she would use such “small eye” methods to attack me. So irritating
Well, then again, that isnt the worst thing she would have said about me. When Patrick told me about it, I was fumed for a moment. Then I went to the toilet, took a 10 sec cool down period, said a little prayer to ask Lord to open up her eyes and conscience. Do not accuse me of things which I would never do. I do not resort to such despicable means to get what I want.

I pray very hard that her poisoned words would not affect my work as all I wish for is peace. I do not want things to turn ugly for I know I am capable if my tail is constantly trampled over. If it wasn’t for my study loan, I would not want to be here but because of circumstances, I have to remain humble and low and to swallow back all the shit that has came on me. I try not to exaggerate things here as there is no point. No one who understands what you are going through except yourself. Thus whenever people ask me howz my job? I would just joke it off saying,”Im paid to MSN, write blog, make pple smile.” What’s the point of going into so many details? No one would comprehend; it is all up to you. Just get your work done, on time and efficiently and no one can do anything to you. That is the motto I live by in this company. Playing my cards right on human relations is equally important. However to watermelon, I really don’t wish to even touch her card, just ignoring every little knives words she said about me. One thing which I wont do, is to lick the backside of some pple, PERIOD!

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.Tuesday, September 11, 2007 ' 4:52 PM Y

Woman, Contradicting Creatures! Discuss

It sparked me to start up a discussion on this topic, about women and her contradicting nature, when I was having a conversation with someone very close to me. She was relating her feelings to me on how she suddenly became G.E.M (Green Eyed Monster) unknowingly and unexpectedly. I was telling her it is natural to feel this way. Woman knows the history of any item, stumbles upon it, BAM! Something starts to tickle the woman’s heart. The G.E.M!

Common topic. Woman wants to know every single little detail about her Man’s past.

Woman asking Man
Woman: Where did this item come from?
Man: My ex gave it to me
Woman: What’s your ex Name? Why did she give it to you? Blah Blah Blah
Man: Are you sure you want to know? You sure after knowing it, you will be ok?
Woman: Of course, I want to know more about you (uh-oh)
Man: *goes into details*
Woman: *keeps silence, pretends to listen attentively but the accumulation of lactic acid in the heart keeps increasing*
Man: You ok?
Woman: Yyyyaaaa….(monotonous)

Man asking Woman
Man: Where did this item come from?
Woman: My ex gave it to me
Man: Ok
Topic closed

you can see that Man knows that knowing too much truth could cause discomfort but woman on the other hand, sigh... hahah .. u know what i mean.

After a 2 hour discussion with my friend, she was telling me that she chooses to communicate her discomfort to him and that whatever action he chooses to take its up to him. But the truth is, Woman do not dare to admit what she really wants the man to do. One hand she says its ok to keep but on the other hand, PREFERS those things to be gotten rid of. I almost fell off the chair. Take Extra note here, the Female species ALWAYS give Male species two options when the fact that only one option can satisfy her. Y doesn’t the Female just say it? Then the Female will say, respecting his decision, do not want to restrict his freedom. Then in turn, will the G.E.M return? No matter how much woman tries to “act tough” playing it cool about it, the truth is, deep down inside its uncomfortable.

Im so thankful that my friend has found someone, whom could counter the G.E.M in her, and win the battle instead.

Woman: *Confesses on the presence of G.E.M*
Man: *pulls her to give her a big hug* . You poor thing ley, being bothered by things that shouldn’t even be a bother in the first place.
Woman: I just want to let you know my feelings and be truthful about it. But I wouldn’t want to be seemed as if im restricting your freedom and space.
Man: I will get rid of it, IF I remember and have the time. But if the next time you see it, you shall help me get rid it of it ok?
Woman: *starts to smile liao lor* but I dun want to be seem too controlling (*man sweat*)

The truth is, is getting rid of items the best option available? What if it is something expensive? What are you going to do with it?

Personally, I feel that somehow it is the best choice available. You can disagree with me but please do not take offence to any comments below. Let me state my view point.

1) In any relationships, there are bound to be times where disagreements may arise and especially woman, who are made up of water, emotions tends to take over. What if something that bothered her in the past all of sudden appears in front of her again? Is it considered a double blow? Its like adding oil to fire.

2) To man, physical items are just physical items. To woman, we tend to think more to it because we know that somehow inside there contains special memories that lead to the existence of the items. My friend was even telling me that things like ornaments can be donated to charity but what about valuables? It cannot be just given to any charity. This is a very very tough decision. You would not want to be throwing bucks away; y not let the bucks flow in for you again? Win-win situation. You would not have any use of it yet you managed to get something out of it? AGAIN, depending on where you are coming from, it is up to individual again. Case to case basis.

3) If items are not gotten rid off, it would be deemed that you are accustomed to it. It may be an assumption that you are OK with having the things lying around? Or could it be the other way round? It is like planting, you find one weed growing, you will pluck it off right? Problem has been identified, y not tackle it before it runs too deep?

Some pointers which my friend’s bf did to tame the G.E.M in woman :-

First, Man should try not be irritated in this area because any first sign of irritation would lead to unhappiness. Note: I use the word try it really depends a lot from what is coming from within. Woman tells you about such things in turn of getting a little attention. Thus a man should reassure their woman instead of getting pissed with them. However, woman in this case, cannot take it for granted and use it ALL THE TIME! Like how we would use tears to “win”. No use if its being used too often.

Secondly, woman should not keep this discomfort inside you for long. As your Man, he wants you to share all thoughts and feelings instead of bottling it inside. I remembered wad Darling tells me, no matter what even trivial matters, to let him know. He does not want me to suffer alone. Man should be the one taking lead in the emotions and not allowing emotions take over the relationship. Men are more rational than woman but the difference lies in whether your Man can control his emotions to tame the intense situation when needed, that is integral. Women just lose it! Terrible! Thus I plea to men out there, pls be gentle with us.. lol

Lastly, woman, try to be less kapo, which is HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE! By nature, we are Kapo creatures. Curious about everything. Cant be kept in suspense for long. Sometimes, I really pity the Men for needing to go through such torture on understanding women. The fact is Women don’t necessary understand her own self too. We are curious about Everything on earth, yet we are unable to handle the truth when the truth is told. Poor men. The agony of being “shot right in the head” seems inevitable. It’s an never ending mystery. Probably that’s why Women come from Venus.

I find myself at cross roads at times, not knowing where to go or what to do. I used to just swallow back all the unhappiness I have in me, testing my own patience and tolerance. Whats the use if its going to just make one feel miserable??

Conclusion : YES. Women are contradicting creatures. It really does take a lot to love a woman. Whether you choose to take the plunge it’s really up to you...

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.Monday, September 10, 2007 ' 3:55 PM Y

Take a peak at my pre-weekend and weekend expedition!

Was a pleasant surprise when darling brought me to watch Songs of the Sea! It was a fabulous water show. Too bad it was too short a show. Then again, we got to watch it for free! So wadz there to complain about?

On Saturday, it was my virgin trip to Pulau Ubin! Yes, u did not read wrongly. It is my virgin trip! Despite being in Singapore for so many years, I did not have the chance to go pulau ubin at all! Rain was pouring down in the morning and we were so afraid that we could not make it. Cooked fried rice for lunch and rain stopped. We proceeded to Changi Ferry Terminal to take the boat across to P.U. Went cycling and explored Chek Jawa.
The day was cloudy and windy. A great day to be out cycling!

Ran the Shape Run on Sunday. My training paid off! I managed to run the full 5km without stopping and was going on strong! Yippie, next target 10km! Dear was so sweet to send me there early in the morning at 6am. Fetched Mei, Esther too! He was going to stay put at Marina Mac while I ran. As we were running late, dear dropped us off at Esplande. Forgetful me left my running towel in the car. Gosh, I was prepared to run without my towel. Yann Huei, Mayfong and myself proceeded to the baggage counter, after which we all hanged out around that area. About half an hour, I saw this familiar face running towards me from the midst of the orange crowd. It was Dear! He went through thousands of pple to find me just to pass me my towel. He was shocked to see so many females dressed in orange shirt with ponytails!!
However, since our hearts are linked, he managed to find little me in the midst of all. Muak Muak, my one and only….

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.Friday, September 07, 2007 ' 1:31 AM Y

My dear's own creation.. I was totally caught off guard when he sent this recording to me.
Yann Huei was beside me when she heard it too. She could not stand us. Hahaha

Just wanted to share this little clip for u titled "Oh Susan" by Ray Oh!

Pls be noted that goosebumps are guaranteed and Suz will not be responsible for any consequences that occurs while listening to it.

Thank U Darling! I will always want u for my sweetheart too.

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.Thursday, September 06, 2007 ' 3:03 PM Y

My Flatmate, Jamie commented this. “Ever since Ray came into my life, the fridge is always packed to the rim!”

Somehow, my honey bunny makes me want to cook for him every day. The way to get to a man’s heart is through his stomach. Totally agreed! Haha. I want to be his woman whom can enter the kitchen to someone whom he can bring out for functions etc. (进得了厨房，出得了厅堂的女人). I have been training up for my marathons and I am doing distance which I have never completed before. Hopefully one day I can run the full marathon with him. I have to buck up for he is such a good runner.

Im a carnivore but I do eat at least 14 types of vegs. Darling always makes sure I get my dosage of vegs and I have been swallowing it. Yikes! But now that I get to choose the vegs, I avoid vegs with those humongous stems! I can die. To vegs lovers : Seriously, I can get choked if I chew on those stems, I simply cant swallow it, period! So don’t ask me y I can’t swallow, its something that only Veg-haters understand. LOL.

Darling has been my guinea pigs for close to one month now and he has tried a lot of my first-time recipes. A few are listed below :-

Mexican
We had chicken Tortillas.

Chinese Food
Sweet and Sour Fish, Sambal Long Beans with shrimps, Lotus Root Soup, Crispy Luncheon Meat, Stir Fry Potato etc.

Italian Food
Tomato base, Cream base and Pepperoni Pizza!

Japanese Food
Miso Ramen

These are just normal foods, however, the significance is, My First Tries for the Chinese and Mexican foods. So now is the time to practice and gather all skills needed to whip up a good meal. Not forgetting learning all the secret recipes. Never was I so enthusiastic about finding new recipes on cooking. Although its just normal foods, Darling tells me that it has the only ingredient in the world that no other dishes have and that is Love. Usually its on baking but now its both! I used to bake more however, I find myself cooking more nowadays. My mom and granny also told me that a girl should at least know how to cook a decent meal. I fully agree. I find myself the willingness that I have never felt before, to want to take care of him so much. In every aspects from his health to well being. Praise the Lord that his indigestion problem has been curbed under my intensive yet selective food diet. Not only should girls know how to cook, they have to not hate do chores. Thou im not a daily chore person but I have to upkeep a certain level of cleanliness.

The way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. Somehow I believe that guys would appreciate gals whom will step into the kitchen for them. As I have mentioned above, it can be the simplest dishes, but the main ingredient is Love. It can be felt. I always have this vision that I can lay down warm dishes for him while he showers. When he is done, comes out to give me a hug from behind and tries to snitch on the food and gets a pat on the hand instead. Hahah. I am lucky, Darling always insist that he should do the dishes, Rule of the House! ahha. That I cannot pamper him too much but how can I bear to do that when he is so easily pamperable?

Cinz and I are sharing a few similar traits. We are W.I.T and M.I.T. But of course Cinz is on the faster track. She was sharing her joy on how Der plans for their route. They will be getting engaged by end of next year. Der even checked out the best diamonds are from Tiffany’s (Can anyone verify on this? Not very well versed with diamonds thou). Super fast lor. Was having a conversation with Cinz on the “market rate” of diamonds. I remember someone telling me it’s at least 0.5carat (Source unknown). Cinz told me that she prefers earrings, I said she is power. Ring has one diamond. Earrings have TWO diamonds! Smart eh. Hwahahha .

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. ' 2:32 PM Y

I have been training up for my marathons and I am doing distance which I have never completed before. Hopefully one day I can run the full marathon with him. I have to buck up for he is such a good runner.

Im a carnivore but I do eat at least 14 types of vegs. Darling always makes sure I get my dosage of vegs and I have been swallowing it. Yikes! But now that I get to choose the vegs, I avoid vegs with those humongous stems! I can die. To vegs lovers : Seriously, I can get choked if I chew on those stems, I simply cant swallow it, period! So don’t ask me y I can’t swallow, its something that only Veg-haters understand. LOL.

Darling has been my guinea pigs for close to one month now and he has tried a lot of my first-time recipes. A few are listed below :-

Mexican

We had chicken Tortillas.

Chinese Food

Sweet and Sour Fish, Sambal Long Beans with shrimps, Lotus Root Soup, Crispy Luncheon Meat, Stir Fry Potato etc.

Italian Food

Tomato base, Cream base and Pepperoni Pizza!

Japanese Food

Miso Ramen

These are just normal foods, however, the significance is, My First Tries for the Chinese and Mexican foods. So now is the time to practice and gather all skills needed to whip up a good meal. Not forgetting learning all the secret recipes. Never was I so enthusiastic about finding new recipes on cooking. Although its just normal foods, Darling tells me that it has the only ingredient in the world that no other dishes have and that is Love. Usually its on baking but now its both! I used to bake more however, I find myself cooking more nowadays. My mom and granny also told me that a girl should at least know how to cook a decent meal. I fully agree. I find myself the willingness that I have never felt before, to want to take care of him so much. In every aspects from his health to well being. Praise the Lord that his indigestion problem has been curbed under my intensive yet selective food diet. Not only should girls know how to cook, they have to not hate do chores. Thou im not a daily chore person but I have to upkeep a certain level of cleanliness.

The way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. Somehow I believe that guys would appreciate gals whom will step into the kitchen for them. As I have mentioned above, it can be the simplest dishes, but the main ingredient is Love. It can be felt. I always have this vision that I can lay down warm dishes for him while he showers. When he is done, comes out to give me a hug from behind and tries to snitch on the food and gets a pat on the hand instead. Hahah. I am lucky, Darling always insist that he should do the dishes, Rule of the House! ahha. That I cannot pamper him too much but how can I bear to do that when he is so easily pamperable?

Cinz and I are sharing a few similar traits. We are W.I.T and M.I.T. But of course Cinz is on the faster track. She was sharing her joy on how Der plans for their route. They will be getting engaged by end of next year. Der even checked out the best diamonds are from Tiffany’s (Can anyone verify on this? Not very well versed with diamonds thou). Super fast lor. Was having a conversation with Cinz on the “market rate” of diamonds. I remember someone telling me it’s at least 0.5carat (Source unknown). Cinz told me that she prefers earrings, I said she is power. Ring has one diamond. Earrings have TWO diamonds! Smart eh. Hwahahha .

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