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.Friday, August 31, 2007 ' 3:36 PM Y

Life is full of unpredictable events. Indeed, there is no way that man can control such events. (Note: I use “Man” which means both Man AND Woman in general.) Sometimes, we just fall for the unexpected, unknowingly yet willingly.

I relate this to my darling. When I first knew him during SP Band days, he gave me the impression that he will never take a second look at a girl like me. Thou we sat beside each other during practices, our conversations were just about gossips within the band room. Totally nothing on personal level. To me, he was someone popular with the babes and happy-go-lucky type of guy. Someone whom is always cheery and that he can handle any obstacles in front of him. He carries these bright chirpy whites with those puppied-eyes, its hard not to take a second look to observe this guy.

Well, due to unforeseen circumstances, he had to quit band and we sort of lost contact soon after. Thou there were a few times when I tried to contact him in regards to concerts and performances, my efforts were in vain.

It’s not until six years later where we got back in contact. At that point of time, he is a long lost friend to me. However, as time progresses, something else happened. It was a period full of dilemmas and questions when he stepped into my life again.

In the beginning, I was pretty apprehensive about him because of some facts I knew. Was I a gamble or a chip? Is he serious or is he not? You cant blame a girl for feeling unsecured correct? Especially me, im someone whom is superbly duberly unsecured. However, think of it the other way round, I am not perfect either. There are bound to be some odds which we may not accept about each other but if we were to weigh out the differences, I chose to stand by him and to overcome all odds. True love is not about loving a perfect person but loving an imperfect person perfectly (Patrick Boh, 2007). There are many close-to-perfects out there; man cannot be satisfied if our hearts isn’t settled. If man to want to look for “better” ones, it will be never ending. So y let your soul mate slip by your fingers? In this case, again, I want to thank the angels for sending someone whom managed to fulfill almost everything I needed.

Till now, whenever I look at Dear, I still could not believe that I am looking at him from such a close distance. I just can’t get enough of him even thou it is juz plain staring. Literally staring. I kept asking myself, am I dreaming? Is this true? I am actually in the arms of someone whom I tot will never fall for me. Stroking my hair and giving me gentle pecks on my forehead. Frankly speaking, till now, I still cant believe all the good things that have fell upon me. I really thank God for all that he has given me. I am truly truly blessed.

Cinz Dearie is correct. When one is in love, changes come naturally. Im glad that under “proper guidance”, I managed to let go of what happened in the past. Indeed, I have felt the changes in me taking place. I took at least one year to recap and learn on the basic rules to follow in a relationship. It may sound lame but there are indeed explanations why relationship fails. I never used to believe that such thing existed, just told myself, like then like la, no big deal. However, I am wrong, there are ways and means to make sure that your rship is a successful one. Then again, it really takes a lot of laughs, tears, hair pulling, frustrations anything you can think of before you can say that your rship is stable. I watched License to Wed recently and it is indeed meaningful. A couple madly in love may not be ready for marriage unless knowing the real character. The tough part is how do you get the real character out and then decide on whether u can accept that part of him or her.

Take note, you need to fall in love with the character, Not the personality or looks. You can change everything except character. This is integral. Okok, looks still plays a part, agreed?

Last but not least. Dear, Thanks for coming into my life. You are indeed my Ray of Light in the darkness for I know that I will always have your hand to guide me. Everything that you have done for me is simply amazing. I just wish I could do more for you. I never knew it was so hard to be apart from you even though it is just for a few hours. Is it because of honeymoon period only? We shall see ya?

loved

.Thursday, August 23, 2007 ' 10:57 AM Y

We went to Charlie’s corner for the famous fish and chips last night.
I really appreciate what Dear is doing for me. Putting in all the extra effort for me.

I once posted an entry about girl’s indecisiveness on “What-To-Eat Topic”. Guys, don’t you agree that sometimes it really gets frustrating when a girl gives you an “anything” answer when being asked what she wants to eat? Don’t you wish that somehow the girls know what they want to eat?
Girls are at fault too ok. However, the solution is usually very simple. Either the girl tells the guy exactly what they want to eat OR the guy makes the decision and girls just follow it, PERIOD!

I try to make it a point to make up my mind on what to eat if it’s a quick dinner and Dear usually just eats from the same stall. For longer dinners, Dear just tells me where he wants to bring me and I would be most glad to just follow him… to wherever he wants to go.

OK. Back to my original entry. Went to Charlie’s @ Changi Village for Fish and Chips. This stall was set up in 1979 and their signature dish is the F & C naturally. We took a short walk along the beach to enjoy the sea breeze. We chatted about all the things that happened before we got together and “dug” into the thoughts then. And Yes, we had a good laugh on it.

Thanks so much for a wonderful evening.

loved

.Monday, August 20, 2007 ' 2:49 PM Y

On Saturday morning, I went over to Dear’s place to see his mom. Had a long chitchat with her as our blading session was cancelled due to rain.

Dear had a surprise up his sleeves which he had a hard time keeping it mum. Of cuz being the nosey me, I am sure to probe lots of questions. Finally, Dear let the cat out of the bag. He managed to get tickets for the Fireworks Festival at Marina Bay Floating Platform. Feels so good as we need not to stand a few hours in order to catch a fireworks display. I had the first class tickets and considered the best seats for the perfect view. Breathtaking and most importantly, I watched it with Dear. Got me this little balloon when he bought Putu Pirang. So sweet rite..?

Dear took one shot which I tot it was pretty artiistic. Share it with you guys.

This Sunday was pretty special to me as I did something for the first time. I cooked both lunch and dinner for Dear.

Lunch
Meatball porridge with crispy luncheon meat, salted eggs and vegs

Dinner
Chicken Baked Rice with Brown Brothers Orange Muscat & Flora Wine.

I enjoy cooking for Dear as he is the one whom I want to cook for. When there is love while cooking the food, it somehow tastes better. Dear so cute, he was taking pictures of me cooking saying that next time we could show it during our wedding dinner a. Whahhaha. *blush* Notti dear, make me shy

Dear finished his portion lor. Amazing. Im glad that he enjoys my cooking not to mention being my guinea pigs for my ‘first tries’.

I always think that guys who know how to play the guitar are very charming. My dear plays the guitar! I borrowed Jaime’s guitar and he played 2 songs for me… enjoy the pieces below.

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.Sunday, August 19, 2007 ' 11:47 PM Y

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.Thursday, August 16, 2007 ' 8:21 PM Y

Apologies to all my readers, have not been updating my blog for some time.
Just came back from my States Trip and I’ve been so super caught up at work. Almost forgotten how to work. LOL.

The trip was awesome! I never regret on my decision to go ahead with my plans. This trip was something which I wanted to fulfill. I needed this break very much especially from all the drama and traumas that I have been through in the past few months.
I have learnt so much from this trip, experiencing the different culture we have in Singapore / Malaysia.

The cities that I have visited :-
San Francisco
Sacramento
Orland
Las Vegas
Orange County
Napa Valley

I can say that I overdid myself this time. Despite having only 2 weeks, I managed to squeeze in about 1 month activities within the 2 weeks I have. Seriously, if you were to ask me to write about my trip. It will be endless! I will do a few highlights :-

1) Las Vegas
Vegas is a MUST visit if you are in the western area. Thou it is scorching HOT there but it is indeed SIN CITY. “What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas”. That is the line! Dun worry, I was a good girl. I dint do anything farnie.
Did lotsa sightseeing. Went Grand Canyon / Lake Mead / Hoover Dam.
Watched Cirque Du Soliel “O”.
Drive solo in a left hand drive car. It was scary. Trust me, for once, I hated driving.

2) Orange County
Visited DisneyLand / Knotts Berry Farm
Skydive
Tons of Shopping
Visited New Port Beach to experience a beautiful sunset by Pacific Ocean.

3) Napa Valley
HOT AIR Ballooning!
Bought 4 bottles of wines from an exclusive winery

Writing it down isnt as interesting as compared to the real experience. This will be a trip I will never ever forget! Although I traveled alone for more than 16,000 miles, somewhat I did still hope that I did not go alone.
After this trip, I am somewhat a changed person. Learning to appreciate and be thankful for wad I have. Indeed the Lord took good care of me while I was having fun.

The total damage of this trip was around 5.5k. *Sweat* Now back to square one again. Sigh

Guess I have to recuperate for a few years before I do another major trip again. For sure, I will revisit States if I get the chance again.

loved