.Wednesday, May 30, 2007 ' 2:20 PM Y
Are you Miss Understood?
If I am to conduct a survey of myself, I believe I will get similar answers.
What is your first impression of Susan Low?
Most of the comments will be. She is a bitch. I hate her. She looks so dao! I dont like her. She acts know-it-all. She is so bloody damn proud. Somebody Pls Kill Her !!
Oh well, I did get a fair share of people whom will comment and tell me about this initial “first impression”. I came to realized that either you hate or like the real me. Some will not be able to accept me for who I am in the beginning but I always pray for a good friendship.
I am glad that the truth is told. True friendship is able to withstand any negative comments and always forgiving. It is never soothing to the ear to listen to negative comments but then if I refuse to accept them, how am I going to change for the better? However, I will not stop learning. I am truly blessed to have friends whom will not wear a mask to tell me that they like me but in fact they hate me to the core. I will be sad that the real truth is hidden. I am blessed to have all my friends around me now. Thank God, that somehow its friendships formed instead of enmity. That is integral. 2 regrets in my life were that I did not try to turn 2 enmity bonds into friendship. One of them is D and the other TT. Even thou we are not in contact anymore, I wish one day that we will have a friendship together again. I managed to turned around some important friendships too when I left secondary school and im glad.
Y would I blog about this? I was back at my secondary school and I must admit it wasnt a great sec sch life except for the few great moments and some long life friends I have found from there. I did go through a period where I was boycotted and I could not understand y till now. But im glad that I rekindled with most of them except D and TT. Those were the young and innocent days.
Another reason y I am blogging abt this is that im doing reflections and finding ways to constantly improve myself. Dont you agree that sometimes you will juz dislike a person’s face even though you have never ever seen him or her in your life before. Y is that so? Are we being too judgmental? For me, I choose to remain at a neutral standpoint. Everybody is the same. Of cuz if its some actions which happens subsequently, then it will be a different case. I choose not to hate because it is very tiring to hate somebody. However, we cannot stop others from having their own views on u.
Recently, I got to know the latest of such news of someone whom I dint expect to have this “first impression” of me. Definitely shocked but not surprising because I never knew my friend had that impression of me. It was though another friend that I learnt the truth. That did not affect my thoughts on this friend because what matters most is what we share right now and not what happened in the past. I’ve learnt to accept that that is the kind of vibes I give to pple whom do not know me. I have no idea how to change that but at least if given a chance to know me better, I will prove that im not that worth killing after all. However, if you still feel like killing me, I resign to fate.
Can I state and declare that first impressions are often misleading?
I believe that deep within all of us is a kind soul, there is no reason y we should hate who and who. However, when we know the truth about being hated, how would the person react and change on it? If no changes are done, naturally the unhealthy feelings will still linger. Most importantly is knowing when to retract and retrack yourself and of cuz to rectify the problems (if any). But then, how many of us are courageous enough to tell a person straight in the face that he or she is being disliked? I admit I cant do that so I choose not to hate in the first place. Even if there are the slightest negative thought, I will not tell anybody because I strongly believe that all negative thoughts will turn positive eventually.
So, how well (and TRUTHFULLY) do you know about your first impression? What you see may not be what people really feels. You may feel that people all around you like u, think again. The beginning may be otherwise. They may seem like to be smiling at u happily but is it a real smile or just a cover up for hatred?
Give it a thought.
Conclusion. Susan’s First Impression : Wad a bitch! Wadz yours?
