.Saturday, February 24, 2007 ' 4:56 AM Y
Y is the ring round?
It signifies Eternity. Eternity of wad you would ask. It is the never ending of all happiness. It is the never ending of all sadness. It is the never ending of all promises. It is the never ending of trust and commitment and faith. The most important of all, to signify Love is round. You love the same person from the beginning and after going a big circle you will continue meeting and loving the very same person whom gave u the ring.The Ring, A Sacred Item.
I so impressed that I can write such definitions on the word Love but when it comes to practice, I totally sux at it! However, it isn’t all that bad after all, despite that I only know how to apply it in Theory, it is my faith that prevents me from all possible hurts.
Its amazing how much im beginning to lose the real meaning of the word “Trust”. I simply juz cant accept the words said by some people. A little of my own affirmation and a little of my own woman’s instinct made me stand strong. Do not believe 100% cuz you will realize that what is said is all Bullshit.
People move on from stages to stages. When you have passed one stage we move on to another but don’t give lame excuses like not having confidence to move onto another stage. For its only a matter of time that truth surfaces and I shall see the real true colours. I will be able to see all the lies that were told. What’s my point of saying this? Stop giving lame excuses! Instead of me feeling guilt-ridden, I would feel disgusted of what is being said in the beginning and another action is done at the end. It gives a new definition to the word “Bastard”.
Imagine if I were to trust easily again, I would have just officially stepped into another A.H II. Im overwhelmed that now I did not even waste any time on trying anything. I aint that stupid to let history repeats itself. For that Im proud of myself. Im just so glad that I was able to keep a clear, rational mind and make the correct decisions despite under that kind of pressure. We are Captains of our own Ship, we steer our journey and paths. Beware, if steered wrongly, we can only brave the storm that lies ahead. Of cuz it isn’t always the case that I am right but for now, it is definitely a correct choice I made. However, the downfall is, it will juz take me a longer time to regain back my faith in the word “Trust”. I am slowly forgetting the meaning of this word too.
Before I regained and understood all meanings and what a ring symbolizes, I told myself that I will not put on any. Prob the only time I will is when im getting engaged ba. Dunno whether got such chance even not, LOL. By then, I will know if I have fully understood the responsibility of having it on my finger.
I want to take this chance to apologize to the giver of this ring. Something for sure is that you wont read this but I would still want to thank you for this mini-yet-filled-with-lotsa-responsibilities ring (in Suz’s definition). It is very special to me and it will always remain special. No one will be able to replace the place u have in my heart. I may never ever put this on but one thing for sure is that u will even happier if I managed to find the real ring that belongs to me and when im willing to put it on.
I will commemorate this ring with this blog entry and it will be kept locked safely in my heart, always and never ending. It served its purpose afterall….
Y is the ring round?