.Sunday, November 12, 2006 ' 11:26 PM Y
juz finished my grp study @ NUS . Been studying from 12pm to 10.30pm... but thankfully it is a fruitful discussion. Thanks to Eric (Angie-s bf) who has been givin us Easters a lift home. Saved us a lot from taking a cab back home.
Smtg happened today. I finally saw smtg which I have been wondering, when will i see it? The Yellow Coloured Plate. It was just in front of me. Thou I told myself not to see it any further, it just came naturally to still wanting to see it. After the turning, I told myself that, I have to let go, I have to let it go. It will never come back to me. Please dont misunderstand me, I am serious when I say that. So I let it go, I sat back into the back seat and looked at the scenery instead. Then i realised how much scenery I have missed out cuz I have been blinded by the wrong things.
I wanna apologize to N. Sometimes its hard to answer for things which I myself cant find the answer to. It is not that I dun wanna answer but i dunno how to. Knowing where your stand pt is, it makes it even harder for me. I will do what I am supposed to do. I am clear headed and I will stand strong to my beliefs too. I know by doing this, I will end up hurting people whom I never intended too but it is the only way for happiness ahead. I understand your concern over recent matters but I will set things rite again. I ask for nothing but your forgiveness and your forgiveness is all I ask for. No matter what happens in future, I know u will be happy for me.
Right now, I jux wanna shut everything up. Im unwilling to be who I used to be. Who doesnt want to have a clear answer rite? I just wanna start from nothing and to build a new me. No one is going to help me on that except myself. No one, only me! Please do not make me give up the slightest hope I have for myself for I was left with nothing. NOTHING.... juz let me be... juz let me be.....
I was reading thru Keng-s blog and for someone to do smtg which he has nvr done before, it only means that smtg has made him change his viewpt. People keep stressing, Cherish what you have right now. I couldnt help but agree with him totally.
The unexpected happens when u least expected it. Be it good or bad. For only me, have the answer...
