.Tuesday, September 26, 2006 ' 5:26 PM Y
Dont you wish at times you wish you had an apparatus that can tell you exactly what other people are thinking? Something straight forward and transparent.
Then we will be back to the topic on, Can we handle the truth? Often the truth is disclosed, we thought we could handle and accept it with an open heart but how often do we really know the real reason behind every truth? For every truth told is a lie elsewhere. We wouldnt know which side are we standing on.
I wished I can believe all truths to be truthful and true but it was believing that crushed me too. Thus I choose not to believe what I feel anymore. Its not giving me the right direction at all! I refuse to be hurt anymore, I refuse to put my weary heart at the edge of a deadly cliff, I refuse to feel, I refuse to open up.
Dont hold onto my hand if you are going to let go in future.
Dont give promises if you are going to break them in future.
Dont smile at me if you are not smiling from your heart.
Dont say you love me when you know hurt will follow.
I may seem jovial and optimistic about my life but in fact, the truth is often opposite. People view me as independent but who knows that im struggling so hard inside to stay alive. When things go wrong, all I wanna do is take all the blame and put it on myself. Allowing others to live happier and better.
I just feel so worn out…..
